Monday, 14 December 2009

My PhD story : Part I

Saya ada cita-cita.... cita-cita saya utk mengeluarkan buku mengumpul cerita-ceriti phD-phD student yg telah menamatkan study masing2...sama ada di akhirnya mrk berjaya atau pun tidak...

Kenapa? Sebagai pengajaran dan hikmah buat mereka di luar sana yg inshaAllah akan buat PhD, ataupun mrk yg ada insan yg terdekat yg akan buat PhD...pada dasarnya maybe hanya 10-15% sahaja drp the whole population yg akan buat PhD....tak ramai, jadi nature of PhD ni tak diketahui ramai sgt org...

Saya bertuah krn ayah saya buat PhD juga...jadi saya tahu la lebih kurang bagaimana naturenya...cumanya, biasala anak remaja time tu, kalau ayah yg bgtahu, ala2 tak caye gitu, huhu...tapi because of his experience, he can advise me accordingly...bagaimana pula yg mrk2 yg takde org terdekat yg pernah buat PhD? I don't think they have a clue what PhD requires out of, perhaps one day, a book of this type will be able to help and guide them, or at least share our experiences with them....

Panjang jugak nak cerita maklum, a history of 5 years of my life....and interestingly, semua cerita PhD masing2 adalah, we actually we can learn from each other, inshaAllah...

Mana nak mula ek?

1) Pre- PhD story

My quest of PhD scholarship started after i resigned from a cyberjaya company as an IC designer. The company was a private company, small but yet very busy. I started to realise that I cannot keep living my life like that. Balik lambat, balik pun dah stress sgt, makan pun lebih kurang...esok the same, stress dan berlambak kerja....weekend pula masih duk fikir problem2 yg tak leh solve masa kat tempat kerja....hidup jadi sangat penat....nak pergi usrah pun rasa betapa terbebannya...tu masa masih single! Takleh bayangkan kalau dah ada famili...saya sanggup gaji tak setinggi kerja di situ for a quality of that is worth living for!

Di takdirkan time tu saya ada kawan yg baru habis PhD...Kak Miza...she was an engineer before then quit and started her pHD and and worked as a lecturer in one the university in Malaysia... I remember once I asked you love what you are doing now? (ie. lecturing)...and she replied unhesitatingly " THE BEST JOB EVER!"... and after that I too wanted the best job ever tu i surveyed and applied work as a tutor in UNITEN, and the purpose was solely to get a scholarship to do PhD (direct, without masters)....mind you, zaman tu, 2002 takde org lagi wat PhD direct ni...seme biasanya wat masters pastu phD...jadi kalau nak wat cam tu, kene fight gak la, sbb nak convince kan org2 atas....

well, to cut the story short...I was accepted into Uniten and they promised me in the interview that I will be able to do the PhD direct in UK...lepas kerja dalam 4 bulan, they called me and told me that TNB now having money crisis and not able to sponsor me...they can only sponsor me to do twinning PhD....of course this is not why i applied there, so, i decided to give my resignation letter and started to search for other universities which can give me what I want...


I actually applied for two universities, UPM and UIA...UPM because my father told me it will be a good one coz it is near to our house in Seri Kembangan and it is an established univ....UIA because I love the idea of teaching majority muslim students...unlike Uniten, majority of the students are non-muslims...and I had experiences that crushed my heart and hope for the students...I do teach whole heartedly, and I do not want my spirit, energy, enthusiasm went to UIA suits this criteria very much...

I was accepted in both universities...(oh yes, for undergrad students, getting a first class honours really does help you in applying for work in academia)...the dean of the engineering faculty of UPM, even spares some time to have a chat with me...however, as the stories goes, i ended up in UIA...the interview and the university really do impress me, the mission and vision of UIA...all hits the right keys...and of course they have also promised my PhD quest...

Why do a PhD?

This is a must question for anybody wanting to pursue a PhD...and the niyyah may actually change over the years of doing the PhD...however the initial intention is most tutors in universities, in order to be a lecturer we need a PhD, a do I...Plus actually at that time, I wanted to be like my father...i want to have a PhD just like my ayah...and i was really determined and seperti ramai org2 muda, always positive thinking! hehe...

Selepas masuk beberapa bulan kerja...UIA told me that now the country is having a recession, and the economy is too bad to sponsor many students to UK...For that year, 2004, KPT only offered 4 places for staff to study in UK (yes, for all faculties in UIA, all have to compete for that4 places)...and.the rest have to go to other cheaper countries...(masa tu, exchange rate in UK started to rise to 7!)....Of course, I was thoroughly devastated hearing the news plus marah gak la...because they had promised me!!

However, being stubborn as I am, I determined to be one of the four chosen staff that time I already contacted a few universities in UK...and the fastest response was...guess who? hehehe...well my current supervisor, Prof. John David....I told him that I am having this problem now on the scholarship and he said he will help me as much as possible to secure the scholarship. I personally have a meeting with the dean of engineering at that time and told him, i really want to do this PhD...and i would like his support. Of course tak mudah la sesi tu huhu, sampai merah2 muka dean tu masa tu, hehe, but I was really determined...and in the end he asked me to collect the statistics of Univ. Of sheffield and write a small report of the credibility of the university and the group I am applying for. Of course, I didn't do this myself...john helped me all the dean then were convinced and he said he will backed me up in the senate nye meeting...

To cut story short again.... alhamdulillah, Allah blessed me with the good news....i was chosen to go to UK for that year! Huh, panjang story nak ke boleh wat PhD ni...panjang lagi story masa wat PhD, hehe....then I realised, whatever it is I have to get a PhD as i was trusted by UIA to choose me amongst berpuluh2 staff yg apply tahun is surely an amanah...

Ok lah sambung lain masa come...why do optoelectronics?

Thursday, 10 December 2009

ManuSia SeRinG meNoLaK HiDaYaH?

Rambut sama hitam,hati lain-lain.Itulah manusia.Ada manusia yang sungguh-sungguh berdoa meminta agar diberikan hidayah.Namun ada juga manusia yang beria-ia menolak hidayah dan langsung tidak berusaha untuk mengapainya.Bagaimana dikatakan menolak?

Menuru Muhammad al-Mu"afa,terdapat beberapa perbuatan yang boleh di anggap menolak hidayah iaitu:

1.Berpaling daripada hukum Allah s.w.t.
2.Mengelak daripada melakukan ketaatan kepada Allah s.w.t.
3.Berpaling daripada tanda-tanda kekuasaan_Nya serta keesaan-Nya.
4.Mengelak daripada membelanjakan wang di jalan Allah.
5.Tidak suka berzikir menyebut nama Allah.
6.Lalai mengingati akhirat.
7.Tidak membaca al-quran dan merenungi isi kandungannya apatah lagi beramal dengan ajaranya.
8.Tidak bersyukur dengan nikmat dan sebarang kurniaan yang telah diberikan Allah kepadanya.
9.Terlalu mengikut hawa nafsu.
10.Mudah terpesona dengan godaan syaitan dan tipu dayanya.
11.Memekakkan telinga daripada mendengar peringatan-peringatan.

Apa hukum berpaling daripada hidayah?

Menurut Ibn Hajar al-Haithimi dalam kitabnya,Al-Zawajir"an Iqtiraf al_kabair,menolak hidayah merupakan dosa besar lebih besar daripada dosa mencuri,berzina dan lain-lain kerana mempunyai kesan yang sangat buruk terhadap pelakunya.


Kupasan Dari Majalah solusi bertajuk Murrabi oleh zuraimi ismail.

JaLiNan UkhuWWah MusiM SeJuk 2009


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Wednesday, 9 December 2009

Examiners of my viva

Ni external examiner, nama dia Dr. Stephen Sweeney....drp Surrey University. Some details on him :

Stephen's primary research interests lie in the area of semiconductor laser physics with a particular onus on optimising laser performance. He has produced >150 journal papers and conference proceedings in this area including several invited papers. Stephen has recently expanded his interests into photonic sensors based on both III-V and Si technologies. Recent topics include:

  • semiconductor lasers for temperature insensitive operation (quantum dots, dilute-nitrides etc)
  • widely tunable lasers
  • vertical cavity surface emitting lasers and LEDs for plastic fibre systems
  • semiconductor lasers for optical pumping (EDFA, Raman) and printing and data storage applications
  • using photonic devices to sense chemical and biological samples (liquids and gases)

Yang ni pulak internal examiner, Dr. Kristian Groom. Details on him :

Kristian received the MPhys and Ph.D degrees from the Department of Physics & Astronomy at The University of Sheffield, in 1999 and 2003, respectively. He then joined the Department of Electronic & Electrical Engineering at the same university, where he is presently based.

Since obtaining his PhD, for research into the carrier processes and dynamics in InGaAs quantum dot lasers, he has mainly worked on long wavelength GaAs-based lasers (under the EU NanoMat programme) and InP-based quantum cascade lasers, and has co-authored over 30 papers.

In 2005 he was awarded a Royal Academy of Engineering / EPSRC Research Fellowship for research into advanced semiconductor laser engineering, with his main research interests being III-V semiconductor lasers, amplifiers and superluminescent diodes, and the development of advanced fabrication technologies for such devices.


Alhamdulillah, both of them were very nice... tanya soalan dgn cara baik, bukannya tanya soalan seolah2 cam nak menembak atau menganiaya kita....both are family man, so biasanya mrk2 ni ada gak la hati perut, hehehe.... Kebanyakan soalan were asked by Steve tu, yg internal tak banyak soalan pun, mungkin sbb dia muda lagi and tak berapa experience. Tapi tu lah, the viva lasted almost 4 hours!

Mula2 depa bgtahu start kul 2pm, jadi saya pun dtg la kul 2pm, pastu rupanya, Steve tu terlewat naik train drp Surrey (jauh gak surrey ni drp sheffield, ada gak la more than 3 hours), mrk tunda ke 2.30 pm. I had to wait in the head of department sitting room. Berdebar tak tau nak kata la, huhu....pastu mrk start la viva...dalam 4 jam tu cuma 15 minit je kot rehat, sbb mrk nak ke toilet...

The atmosphere masa viva tu informal je...saya makan biskut lagi masa tu sbb lapar dah dekat 3 jam setengah tu, saya mula lembik, dia tanya soalan sampai 3 kali baru la faham, sbb cam otak dah tak leh compute dah, penat sgt! Tapi pakcik tu keep on saying, I have to ask this question...

Kuar2 bilik tu dah gelap...kul 6pm lebih...yeap maghrib jamak la nampaknya sbb dah isyak by that time...mrk suh duk luar bilik dalam 10-15 minits before mrk panggil balik utk bgtahu kita lulus ke tak....i think that 15 minutes was the longest EVER 15 minutes i ever had! rasa cam dua jam tunggu, huhu, berdebar tok sah nak kata la...tskk

Akhirnya depa panggil masuk n bgtahu la, yg setelah berbincang mrk decided to pass me with minor correction, alhamdulillah!! Ada la lagi pujian yg lain, tapi biasalah mat salleh suka puji org, tak yah la citer kat sini...

Lepas beberapa hari viva, John bgtahu yg Steve tu berminat lagi nak jumpa saya dalam bulan January...sbb dia interested in the results...pastu yg internal tu pun masa sy jumpa nak amik correction pun kata, sorry la lama viva tu, Steve tu mesti interested dgn thesis tu sbb kalau tak takkan sampai 4 jam....he said it is a good thing..(well, i dunno, 4 hours is really traumatic for me)

Habislah satu chapter dalam hidup saya dan suami....Allah Maha Besar, segala pujian dikembalikan kpd Allah... saya doakan rakan2 yg masih berjuang berjaya juga one day, ameen...

Thursday, 3 December 2009

Tension sungguh!

Tengah geram ni...

Baru baca journal paper of a korean research assistant yg pernah bekerja di Physics department kat university of sheffield....I know him and sebelum ni, beberapa kali pergi jumpa dia to discuss things...

and i even show my results at that time...sbb tak boleh explain lagi time tu....tup tap....dia publish paper baru dgn nama prof di fizik department (kawan baik john dan juga the author of the paper am writing now)...dan results dia similar to what i have but with different explanation!!!

yg sakit jiwa tu, banyak apa yg dia tulis di ambil drp first paper kami, tak tak de decency to even refer pun! teruk betul... prof yg kat fizik department tu pun marah, terkejut dan malu dgn paper yg mamat korea publish sbb dia tak bagi pun prof tu baca paper tu sebelum submit, dia sedar bila dah publish pun!!

what the???!!!

huh, kene sambung baca paper ni...sakit jiwa bila baca...manusia ni mmg la tak leh dipercayai...

just to melegakan hati, paper dia tu tak la comprehensive sgt, banyak hand waiving things...yg paper yg kami sdgn tulis ni lagi detail la, tapi it took longer sbb terlalu detail (ni penyakit prof2 ni...nak wat detail2, mula2 sy nk wat 3 pages je, skrg dah jadi 7 pages)

takpelah....nak kene diskas paper ni ngan john lepas ni...

pengajaran? Hati2 ngan manusia...

Tuesday, 1 December 2009

PhD ada cuti kah?

Saya gemar baca PhD comics ni...banyak kali tu mmg terjadi kat kami semua....seperti contoh komik strip diatas....hehe...kalau ikut supervisor kami, mmg la tak de istilah cuti...weekend kah, cuti umum kah...tok sah harap ler...

cam baru2 ni...raya haji...jadi sy bagitau lah sy tak akan dtg ari jumaat tu sbb raya...dia pun kata, oklah camtu, tapi wiken nanti dia akan call...tak cukup ngan tu, dia kata nanti christmas, awk tak bercuti kan? ye lah, sbb awk bukan kristian and plus dah amik cuti raya tu, huhu....sebenarnya ada la logik gak kat situ, namun...sapa yg tak nak bercuti ye dak?

in the end, dia tak call pun wiken tu, alhamdulillah...saya pun tak berapa sihat, jadi banyak habiskan masa berehat je...tidur manjang...

beginilah hidup org wat phd :) (well, true for mrk yg dpt supervisor cam supervisor kami la ) setakat sharing borak2 kosong2....

Thursday, 26 November 2009

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha....

Tuesday, 24 November 2009

Rindu Malaysia...

Nostal betul lagu ni, masa kecik2 dulu slalu nyayi kat sekolah rendah...

Dalam research group kami ni (impact ionisation group)...cukup semua malay, chinese and indian malaysian (majority chinese la, malay ada 3 org)....hehe, yg indian tu boss besar, pakcik a way, i can see how he tries to build a mini malaysia here....kuat juga rasa nationalisme pakcik ni....which is good... if only he could see even beyond that....

Malaysia oh tanah airku...
Tanah tempat tumpah darahku....

Besar harapan ku pada Malaysia,
Besar sungguh harapanku kepada umatku di sana....
Aku berdoa moga aku dapat menyumbang dan merubah kepada yg lebih baik...

Saturday, 21 November 2009

Terima kasih...

Assalamualaikum wr wbt sahabat2 semua,

Kami ingin mengucapkan terima kasih diatas semua ucapan-ucapan yg diberikan... Terima kasih diatas kesemua doa-doa yg dihulurkan...moga Allah membalasnya....

Alhamdulillah syukur tidak terhingga ke hadrat Ilahi diatas 'hadiah' yg dikurniakan olehNya...It has been a long rugged journey with sweet and bitter experiences selama 5 tahun menimba ilmu disini... Everything has happened for a reason and I believe, everything that happened, happened for the best..

Buat sahabat-sahabat yg masih berjuang...teruskan berjuang...kita sbg hamba Allah perlu berusaha sedaya upaya kita, dan kita berdoa dan mengharapkan Allah memberi kejayaan di akhirnya nanti...syukur kita ada Allah yg Maha berkuasa sentiasa bersama kita dan yang kita boleh sentiasa meminta pertolongan padaNya...

Teringat saya kata-kata seorang senior PhD disini masa saya mula2 start buat phD dulu (kak salmiah kasolang kalau sesiapa mengenali beliau)...she said to me 'Fadzlin, every phd candidate has his/her own unique story'... memang benarlah, setiap satu drp kita akan ada perjalanan phd yg unik....ada yg 2 tahun dah siap, ada yg 7 tahun belum siap...ada yg pelbagai ujian dtg menimpa, kalau tidak ujian drp supervisor or academic wise, ada pula cabaran drp keluarga etc....tapi. ..yg pastinya, Allah tidak akan menguji kita lebih drp kemampuan kita masing2...jadi jika ada cabaran mendatang, sudah pasti kita mampu menghadapinya. ..if we persevere, janji Allah pada kita...Innamal 'usri yusra...selepas kesusahan pastinya ada kesenangan.. ..

Maaf diatas tulisan yg panjang ini...setakat berkongsi rasa dan saya berdoa semoga semua sahabat-sahabat berjaya di penghujung phd masing2....inshaAll ah, selepas kejayaan itu, kerja kita baru well said by many of you here, masa utk berbakti kepada negara dan ummah yg tercinta....

Fadzlin & Ustaz Yusof

ps: inshaAllah ada masa nanti akan diceritakan pengalaman2 sepanjang phd dan pengalaman viva saya...

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

Viva esok

Moga Allah mudahkan....

minta jasa baik sahabat2 semua mendoakan kejayaan saya yg prepationnya tak seberapa...

Umm Darda’ reported: “My husband reported that he heard Allah’s Messenger (may peace be upon him) as saying: He who supplicates for his brother behind his back (in his absence), the Angel commissioned (for carrying supplication to his Lord) says: ‘Ameen, and it is for you also.’”

(Sahih Muslim, Book #035, Hadith #6589

Jazakumullahu khairan dan terima kasih...

Monday, 16 November 2009


May Allah make it easy for me, ameen....

Saja nak share lagu SM Salim ni... tak seindah wajah...always kagum dgn eloquent nya bahasa.....membuatkan betapa kagumnya kpd pencipta bahasa itu...Allahu 'Azim...

Tak Seindah Wajah
( Lakunan Hidup... )

Kusangka aur di pinggir tebing
Kiranya tebu di pinggir bibir
Kusangka jujur pancaran batin
Rupanya palsu penghias zahir

Kukira hati jiwa nurani
Suci seindah wajah terbayang
Kukira puji seikhlas budi
Kulupa lidah tidak bertulang

Di manis gula semut binasa
Kail berduri bersalut umpan
Di manis kata insan terlena
Kerana budi hamba terkorban

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Friday, 13 November 2009

The Master Of All Martyrs - Hamzah r.a.

The Master Of All Martyrs

Hamzah Ibn ‘Abdul Muttalib (r.a)

Hamzah Ibn ‘Abdul Muttalib was a master amongst Quraish masters and an adornment to its youth… He was known for his courage, knighthood, and his love for hunting… When the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, was announced as Messenger, he was neither supporting nor objecting to this new religion… He only kept observing that great event, without any interference, for the Messenger was a foster brother to him… It was Thûwaybah the slave of ’Abû Lahab who had nursed both of them… Hamzah was two years older than the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him,He is also his uncle (brother of his father)… Hamzah’s mother was the cousin of the Prophet’s, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, mother… Therefore he was related to him from both sides; father and mother..

It was a three-sided of relationship which made the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, one of the closest men to Hamzah’s heart… For that reason, he was very furious when he knew -after he came back from a hunting trip- that ’Abû Jahl had spoken harshly to the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, and insulted him with what he hated most of insults, while the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, had not even answered back… Hamzah went to Ka’bah where ’Abû Jahl was sitting amongst the people of Quraish… He hit him hard with his bow on his head and said: How can you insult Muhammad while I am a believer to his religion and I say what he says?!… Everyone was shocked to that hard blow that injured their chief’s face and to what Hamzah said… They were rather astonished and asked him: O Hamzah… Have you turned against your beliefs..

Hamzah replied: Yes, I say what Muhammad says, and I testify that he speaks the truth… So if ’Abû Jahl has the courage to repeat to me what he told Muhammad, let him do that, and he shall see what I shall do to him…

With these words, everybody was silent… For that was the last thing they expected, that Hamzahh Ibn ‘Abdul Muttalib - being the mighty knight of Quraish and the symbol of its courage - would support his nephew…

Hamzah leaves, and he leaves behind his anger… He is calm again and finds that he had rushed in announcing what he announced, which was out of anger and fury, and not out of true belief and conviction…

Hamzah returns home and stays up all night in deep doubt about this serious matter… He heads to Ka’bah and makes Tawâf (going around Ka’bah seven times)… He asks for Allah’s help to enlighten him to the truth… As soon as he finishes Tawâf, he feels that his love to Islam has been put by Allah in his heart… He goes right away to the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, and tells him… The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, prays to Allah that Hamzah’s faith becomes forever solid…

And because Hamzah became a Muslim, Quraish had to reduce the hurt they caused the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him,He, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, was now protected…

During the Hijrah, Hamzah immigrates too along with the people who did… He was honoured by being the first man to lead a Muslim squadron, and the first man to carry the Prophet’s, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, banner… It is Allah’s will that the Muslims and the non-believers meet in the battle of Badr without previous planning… The very strong men of Quraish went out, fully equipped to save their caravan… Three of their strongest fighters Shaybah Ibn Rabî‘ah, ‘Utbah Ibn Rabî‘ah and Al Walîd Ibn ‘Utbah who speak up saying: Is any of you ready to fight a duel?..

Some of Ansâr (supporters) show themselves up, but they tell them: Indeed you are worthy of respect, but we need to see our equal competitors from Quraish to fight us… Hamzahh Ibn ‘Abdul Muttalib appears from the midst of the army lines… His chest was decorated with ostrich feathers, he held a sword in each hand… With him appear ‘Alî Ibn ’Abî Tâlîb and ‘Ubaidah Ibn Al Hârîth Ibn ‘Abdul Muttalib.. The duel takes place, and Hamzah kills Shaybah Ibn Rabî‘ah, and ‘Alî kills Al Walîd Ibn ‘Utbah… ‘Ubaidah Ibn Al Hârîth and ‘Utbah Ibn Rabî‘ah fight… Hamzah joins them and he kills ‘Utbah Ibn Rabî‘ah… The battle starts, and Hamzah starts assaulting and fighting with his sword… He kills Tu‘aymah Ibn ‘Adî, Al Mut‘îm Ibn ‘Adî’s brother… The Muslims -though few in number and armour- win the battle by Allah’s help… The Muslims killed seventy of the non-believers and captured another seventy… Amongst the men who were killed were ‘Uqbah Ibn ’Abî Ma‘ayt, ’Umaiah Ibn Khalaf , ’Abû Jahl,.. Those were strong men from Quraish and most cruel they were to the Muslims in Makkah… The defeated men from Quraish return to Makkah degraded and humiliated, determined to take revenge, especially from that fighter who fought with two swords and caused them all that injury, known as the lion of Allah and His Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, Hamzahh Ibn ‘Abdul Muttalib…

Jubair Ibn Mut‘îm calls upon his Ethiopian slave Wahshî and tells him: If you kill Hamzah in revenge for my uncle, Tu‘aimah Ibn ‘Adî, then you will be set free… Hind Bint ‘Utbah’s father and brother were also killed by Hamzah in a duel, so she calls upon Wahshî and tells him: All what I own of gold is yours if you kill Hamzah…

Quraish starts getting ready for the battle of ’Uhud… Wahshî joins them, but all what he is determined to do is getting Hamzah… The non-believers are attacked severely, and Hamzah starts assaulting and fighting with his sword… He kills thirty one men of the non-believers… The Muslims almost win the battle, had it not been that some of the archers disobeyed the Prophet’s, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, orders and left their places, and so the Muslims started losing the battle… During that time, Wahshî was keeping an eye on Hamzah… He kept away from taking part in the battle for that reason… Hamzah fell on his back and so the armour fell off his stomach… Wahshî took this chance and killed him… The Muslims were defeated and escaped helplessly…

The non-believing women approached the battlefield… Every one of them -filled with revenge- was cutting apart the Muslim bodies, tearing off their ears and cutting apart their stomachs… Hind Bint ‘Utbah found Hamzah’s body amongst the Muslims slaughtered men… She cut his stomach apart and took out his liver… She bit it with her teeth but she was disgusted, so she spit it out… On that, the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, commented: “If Hamzah’s liver would have entered her stomach, she would have not been touched by the fire of Hell”[1]..

The non-believers return full of joy with their victory, and their revenge, while ’Abû Sufyân announces happily: This day is a day of (revenge) for the day of Badr and the issue of war is undecided, and you shall find in your people how they have been torn and cut, but that does not please nor upset me…

The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, goes inspecting the killed men… When he sees his uncle Hamzah, he weeps… And when he sees what Hind has done to his body, he whooped, then said: “May Allah mercy you my uncle, for you were kind to your kin, and a man of good deeds”… He, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, continued: “If Safiyah -Hamzah’s sister- would not grieve, I would have left him here… For he shall be risen (on the Day of Judgment) from the stomachs of the birds and the beasts”… He, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, then continued: “If I would revenge, I would take seventy men in return for Hamzah”

Allah’s verses followed: (And if you punish (your enemy, O you believers in the Oneness of Allâh), then punish them with the like of that with which you were afflicted. But if you endure patiently, verily, it is better for As-Sâbirûn (the patient). And endure you patiently (O Muhammad, Allâh’s Prayers and Peace be upon him), your patience is not but from Allâh. And grieve not over them (polytheists and pagans), and be not distressed because of what they plot). (An-Nahl “The Bees”,126-127).

The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, prayed to Hamzah’s soul… He said: Allahu-Akbar (Allah is The Most Great) seven times (funeral prayer)… And whenever He, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, prayed for the other killed men, he prayed for Hamzah also… It ended up that he, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, prayed for him seventy two times… The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, used to shroud two martyrs of ’Uhud in one sheet and then say: “Which of them knew Qur’ân more?!”…When one of the two was singled out, he would put him first in the grave.. Then he, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, said: “I will be a witness for them on the Day of Resurrection”[2] He ordered them to be buried with their blood (on their bodies). They were not washed.. Hamzah was buried with his nephew ‘Abdullah Ibn Jahsh in one grave…

When the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, returned to Al Madînah, he heard the sobbing and weeping for the murdered ’Ansâr (supporters)… He said: “How about Hamzah, there is no one weeping for him”[3]

The ’Ansâr (supporters) on hearing that, ordered their women to lament for Hamzah, even before crying for their own victims, so the women did that… Ka‘b Ibn Mâlik and Hassân Ibn Thâbit composed verses of lament and pity for Hamzah. All the women of Al Madînah cry for Hamzah’s death. The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, comes out to them saying: “I did not mean it to be so.. Refrain from what you’re doing, may Allah mercy you… There should be no weeping after this day”

Forty years later, and during the Kalifah (Caliph) of Mu‘âwiyah Ibn ’Abû Sufyân, a flood swept away some of the graves of ’Uhud… The people panic, and rush to cover the messed up graves… When they touched the martyrs, they could feel their flesh still warm and flexible that it could be bent (not stiff)… When the shovel touched Hamzah Ibn ‘Abdul Muttalib’s leg, blood burst out of it…

For Allah’s words are the truth: (Think not of those who are killed in the Way of Allâh as dead. Nay, they are alive, with their Lord, and they have provision) (Âl-‘Imrân “The Family of Imran”,169).

As for Wahshî, the Ethiopian slave, he returned to Makkah and was set free… When the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, opened Makkah, he escaped to Tâ’if[4]… When Tâ’if was opened, and its people became Muslims, he was left helpless… He thought of escaping to Shâ’m or Yemen… A man told him: Waihaka O Wahshî… By Allah, the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, would not kill a man who has become a Muslim… Wahshî went to the Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, announcing Ash-Shahâdah[5] to become a Muslim… The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, told him: “Are you Wahshî?!”.. He said: Yes, O Prophet of Allah.. The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, said: “Tell me, how did you kill Hamzah?!”… So Wahshî told him… The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, said: “Waihaka… Can you hide your face from me?”..

Wahshî avoided to come across the Prophet’s, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, way, so He, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, would not see him and get distressed… Wahshî did that till the Prophet Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, died..

When the Muslims fought Musailamah Al Kadhdhâb (the Liar) during the ruling time of ’Abû Bakr As-Siddîq, Wahshî went out with them… He used the same spear -by which he had killed Hamzah- and killed Musailamah Al Kadhdhâb with it… He kept saying: If I had killed the best of all men by my spear, I pray that Allah would forgive me if I kill the worst of all men by the same spear..

It is from the greatness of Islam that it wipes off what preceded… For whatever sin a man commits before convert to Islam, by starting as a Muslim, he is starting a new phase in his life…It is as if he is reborn… On the other hand, if a man does good deeds before becoming a Muslim, he is rewarded for these good deeds after becoming a Muslim..

The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, was asked about the good deeds a Muslim had done before becoming a Muslim… He, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, was asked by a man about some good deeds this man had done, in Jâhilia, before becoming a Muslim by saying: How about the good deeds that I have done during my pre-Islamic days?!.. The Prophet, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, replies: “Although you have become a Muslim lately, yet you shall be granted the reward for the good deeds you have done before Islam”[6].

[1] Al-Estiaab.

[2] As Al Bukhâri narrated that Jabir (may Allah be pleased with him) said.

[3] As Abû Yaliy narrated that Anas Ibn Mâlik and Ibn ‘Umar (may Allah be pleased with them) said.

[4] Al Tâ’if: A well-known town near Makkah.

[5] Ash-Shahâdah: Testimony of Faith, “None has the right to be worshipped but Allah, and Muhammad, Allah’s Prayers and Peace be upon him, is the Messenger of Allah.

[6] As Muslim narrated that Hakîm Ibn Hâzâm (may Allah be pleased with him)


Taken from

ps : Mungkinkah Hamzah akan menjelma?

Wednesday, 4 November 2009


Alhamdulillah, selesai sudah majlis Warna Warni Muslimah 2009..banyak la suka duka, manis masin dalam persiapan nya dan juga ketika hari berlangsungnya...di harapkan moga usaha kecil kami ini mendapat ganjaran yg banyak drp yg Maha Pemurah...

Alhamdulillah juga, kita semua masih hidup dan bernafas...dalam kehidupan kita ni, kadang2 ada sahaja ujian dan dugaan bertamu...itu sudah lumrah...dalam setiap hela nafas itu jugalah kita bersyukur diatas kesemua yg di kurniakan Allah kepada kita...baik yg kita suka, mahupun yg kita tidak nampak hikmahnya...redha kepada ketentuan Ilahi akan memenangkan perasaan dan jiwa kita...

Jangan kita lupa yg hidup di dunia ini sementara sahaja...akhirat lah yg kekal abadi...moga2 ingatan yg simple ini melekat dalam benak dan sanubari kita setiap masa..

ps : maaflah entri yg tak seberapa, takde idea nak menulis ni...

Friday, 30 October 2009

Convo Wahida

Friday, 23 October 2009

Dr. Reda Bedeir

Semalam pegi dgr ceramah tentang ' A muslim who weight a nation" by Dr. Reda sgt,

kat bawah ni jumpa ceramah dia, selamat mendengar

Lecture delivered on 17 May 2008. Dr. Reda Bedeir is an Instructor and the Muslim Chaplain at both the University of Calgary and Mount Royal College in Calgary, Alberta, Canada. He teaches Islamic and Arabic courses. He is the Imam of Calgary Islamic Centre. He delivers lectures, sermons, and public speeches and participates in dialogues at mosques, churches and temples. He concludes marriage and offers counseling for the Muslim community in Calgary. He obtained a B.A. degree in English and a M.A. degree in Simultaneous Translation between Arabic and English and vice versa from the Faculty of Tongues, Ain Shams University, Egypt. Dr. Bedeir obtained his Ph.D. degree in Applied Linguistics & Islamic Studies from Al-Azhar University, Egypt where he has worked as an Associate Professor of Linguistics and Islamic Studies and the chairman of the English Department, Faculty of Humanities. He is a Fulbright senior scholar who taught Islamic courses and started an Arabic Program at Wake Forest University in North Carolina in USA in 2004. He is also an Associate Professor with the Sharia Academy of America where he teaches Islamic studies online. He has written and published a number of papers on Linguistics and Islam. Moreover, he is also an interpreter with the WHO. He translated a number of books from Arabic into English and vice versa.«

Thursday, 22 October 2009

Question Time

Baru sudah tgk debate Question Time di BBC One... kali ni nye session diadakan di LOndon dan yg havoc nye sbb wakil drp part British National Party (BNP) pun di jemput. Parti ni di UK mmg terkenal dgn racist nya, membenci dan mahukan UK ni diduduki oleh org putih sahaja...

Menarik juga la debatenya...debate ni bagus sbb nye audience dia di ambil drp org local kawasan tu...kali ni org London, next week di wales, lepas tu di reading...asyik tukar2 tempat...pastu menteri2 di jemput ke debate tersebut dan audience seme yg sediakan soalan buat leh la tgk apa polisi2 mrk dan bgaimana mrk kontrol diri mrk..

Kali ni BNP mmg kene teruk la..seme duk mengata la, nak UK semenya org putih, mana boleh...ramai org2 afrika dan pakistani di UK ni...mana mrk nak letak mrk semua..

Anyhow, ada satu soalan tentang patut ke ada sorang pemberita tulis artikel mengutuk penyanyi boyzone yg mati baru2 ni... mengutuk kehidupan gay life dia...menteri2 kat situ semuanya cam membantah artikel tersebut dan kata org2 homosexual ni BERHAK dgn lifestyle mrk dan tak patut dingatakan sebegitu...

salah seorang menteri di depan tu, mewakili conservative party adalah org ISlam, pompuan tapi x pakai tudung...jadi mula2 nampak la dia nak mengelak soalan tu, tapi ditanya kembali, akhirnya dia yg mewakili conservative party terpaksa la kata yes, i agree that civil marriage is acceptable (bkn ayat sebenar tp maksud camtu, lupa dah ayat sebenar dia)...

Sorang je yg kata homosexual ni karut dan pervert, tak patut langsung diajar di sekolah2 rendah dan drp awal lagi parti dia kata UK law sepatutnya mengharamkan gay dan lesbian adalah menteri drp BNP tersebut, huhuhu...

So, masa duk dgr debate tu, saya terfikir, hishhh, beginilah politician terpaksa kadang2 tu mengorbankan prisip agama utk prinsip party...which i can never and will never accept...kesian ke makcik tu, habislah dia...kaum Lut habis kene hujan api dan batu dan di terbalikkan just because kes homoseksual ni la...dan org2 ni semua menyokong dan membenarkan homoseksual ni berlaku...

Dunia akhir zaman....tapi ye la, komplikated la Islam nak masuk dlm dunia politik UK ni...perlu masuk utk defend muslim's right di sini tapi mesti letak clear boundary..otherwise entah2 kita menidakkan akidah kita nanti, nauzubillah...

Ni politik UK, politik malaysia pun macam2 cerita lagi...iskk...

Sekian dulu drp bilik berita 46 broomwalk :)

Mimpi oH Mimpi

Semalam saya bermimpi...mimpi yang pelik juga...memandangkan mimpi tu bukanlah mimpi yg tak baik, boleh lah di share di sini...

Di dalam mimpi tersebut :

Saya seperti biasa meeting dgn supervisor...lepas tu dia kata ' You should go to this person's viva'... saya pun pergilah ke universiti student yg akan viva tu...bukannya dekat, jauh juga...siap naik bas berjam2, dlm keadaan winter, pokok2 takde daun dan bumi diliputi salji...cantek jugalah...akhirnya saya sampai ke universiti tersebut...sebuah universiti yg tak glamer sgt...masuk2 sy jumpa student tu...setibanya kami di bangunan tersebut, 2 org examiner pun memanggil dia masuk ke bilik utk viva....saya pun ikut sekali masuk bilik tu, huhu...dalam viva, examiner tu pun mulalah menayakan soalan kepada student itu....tak lama kemudian...

Saya pulak yg sibuk menanyakan soalan pada student (yes, dlm viva dia)...soalan saya semua sekitar hopping conduction...disebabkan dalam thesis dia membuat kajian tentang mechanism ini....semakin rancak saya menanyakan soalan, sampaikan hampir 90% viva student tu, saya yg tanya soalan! Huh!

Kemudian saya terjaga drp mimpi...

Kembali kepada realiti... mimpi diatas menggambarkan apa yg berada dalam otak dan pemikiran saya, tskk.... dah 3 hari saya mencari informasi tentang hopping conduction.. 3 hari tu tak termasuk bertahun2 saya membaca tentang mechanism ni...tak jumpa2 juga jawapan...semua masih kabur-kabur.....and my worry of the viva... May Allah make it easy for me, ameen, thumma ameen, thumma ameen!

Mimpi ni ada 3 , mimpi drp syaitan, mimpi drp Allah, mimpi mainan tidur...saya rasa yg atas tu mainan tidur, huhuhu....

ps: saja share :)

Gambar Aidilfitri 2009 (Sheffield)

Wednesday, 21 October 2009

What is your personality types?

Tadi buka website sheffield university lepas tu jumpa link ni (dalam website bbc).

Dalam link tu kata:

What's your personality type?

Find out with the 'What Am I Like?' personality test.

If you already know your personality type, or a friend's, you can read descriptions of the 16 personality types. If you want to take the test, read on.

  • This test is 20 questions long and should take about 10 minutes
  • It is made up of four sets of five questions and you will find out about a different aspect of your personality after every five questions
  • At the end of the test you will be assigned one of 16 possible personality types
  • This personality test can't tell you exactly what you are like. No survey can predict personality type with 100 % accuracy. Experts say we should use personality type descriptions to better understand ourselves and others, but shouldn't feel restricted by our results
  • The test was developed for the television programme 'What Am I Like? The Personality Test'
  • It is a simplified personality test based on personality type theory, devised by psychologists
  • It is not a replacement for the full Myers-Briggs Type Indicator® questionnaire and the results are not intended to be the psychometric or practical equivalent to MBTI® questionnaire results

So, setelah jawab 20 soalan tu, result saya seperti dibawah :


Your answers suggest you are a Supervisor

The four aspects that make up this personality type are:

Summary of Supervisors

  • Bring order to their home and work life
  • Like to act on clear, achievable goals
  • Think of themselves as stable, practical and sociable
  • May be irritated when people don't follow procedures

More about Supervisors

Supervisors like to make plans, organise people and get things done efficiently. They are natural administrators who dislike chaos and strive to bring order to every aspect of their lives. Supervisors like jobs where the goals are clearly defined and there are proven work methods in place.

Supervisors are most likely to say they prefer a job which involves a series of separate projects, according to a UK survey.

Supervisors use logic to solve problems and believe in being open and direct in their communications with others. They prefer to work and socialise with like-minded people.

In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Supervisors may reject the opinions of others and insist they are right. Under extreme stress, Supervisors may feel cut off from the people around them and lose confidence in their own ability to cope.

Because they like to take charge and organise activities, others may find Supervisors too bossy.

Supervisor Careers

Supervisors are often drawn to jobs in management or administration that require logical planning.

It's important to remember that no survey can predict personality type with 100 percent accuracy. Experts say that we should use personality type to better understand ourselves and others, but shouldn't feel restricted by our results.

Interesting....i don''t really agree 100% that i am like that...tapi ada la sket2 tu, huhu... mari kita mengenali diri kita lagi... sila amik test di link di atas.

Sunday, 18 October 2009

Kelahiran Amir Fateh

Alhamdulillah. Pagi Sabtu semalam, usrah kami menerima khabar gembira dari pasangan Kak Nita dan abang Raedzal yang selamat menimang cahaya mata ketiga. Amir Fateh selamat diahirkan di The Jossep wing Maternity Hospital pada pukul ~5 pagi. Moga Allah kurniakan kekentalan semangat juang seorang mujahid laksana Sultan Muhammad Al Fateh yang membuka Constantinople (Istanbul).

Kami mengucapkan tahniah kepada pasangan dan mendo’akan buat mereka sekeluarga,

“Burika laka fil Mauhub. Wa syakarta al Wahib. Wa ruziqta birrahu. Wa balagha asyuddahu”

Yang maksudnya, “Moga Allah memberkati si bayi, kamu mensyukuri Pemberinya dan bayi tersebut berbakti kepadamu” (Hadith Kelahiran). Amin

Saturday, 17 October 2009

Tuesday, 13 October 2009

Tunas Taqwa Fun Club

saja nak share video promo ni...comel sgt budak2 ni.
Harapan ummah...

Kingdom of Heaven

Best betul citer ni... sapa2 yg belum tgk sgt2 digalakkan tgk...tapi ofcourse la filem depa, banyak la dlm filem tu duk citer psl christianity, tapi yg psl Islam tu especially part2 akhir betul...

Masa yg part2 last tu, yg hero kristian tanya Salahuddin Al Ayubi...what is Jurusalem worth?

Salahuddin Al Ayyubi jawab :


Jerusalem, Palestine skrg....